Let me start this post by writing that I am NOT a workout evangelist. I do not go around preaching the gospel of exercising. I believe that organized exercising is a personal choice. I also don’t (these are just my opinions) think that exercising is the key to losing weight. I believe that working out plays a part in weight loss, a small part and diet is what one should concentrate on if he or she wants to lose weight.
With that said, I really like to workout. I am one of those weird people who use exercise as an antidepressant. In the past, I used working out a little too much as an antidepressant because I ended up hurting myself and stressing my body out. Back then, I didn’t know I was using exercise as a pick me up and not until I was hit with some thyroid issues along with my hips going out on me, did I realize how dependent I was on exercise. At that point in my life I was working out 5 to 6 days a week and training for races. I sometimes ran twice a day for about 6 to 7 miles. Let’s keep in mind that when I was doing all of that, I was also pushing a double jogging stroller with one of the children in that stroller being under the age of 2. Looking back I was a maniac, but you can be a maniac when you surround yourself with other “fit moms”.
Before my son turned 2, I hit 2 very big walls. First, I was told by an orthopedic doctor that if I didn’t stop doing what I was doing, then I would need a full hip replacement by the time I was 40 years old. He told me not to run, bike, or even take long walks. Next, I had my thyroid removed the day before my son’s 2nd birthday, which left me depressed and fatigued most of the time. I was no longer that “fit mom” and only a few friends remained out of that circle. I remember during that time, the fitness evangelists would tell me just to get up and beat all that was bothering me. If it was as simple as getting up and getting it done, then I would have done it. The whole situation made me so angry. I made a promise to myself that I would never do that to another person because you never know what a person is going through. If I could have worked out during that time, I would have, but I just couldn’t. The whole situation made me feel robbed of my normal.
I put on a considerable amount of weight during this time, but the funny thing that happened was I also learned to love me during that time. I figured out a number of things, like my happiness was not conducive to a size and neither was my marriage. My husband never once looked at me differently. I came to realize that I had to make some changes in order to get back to who I use to be or the new me, I changed my diet to get my thyroid issues under control and began to meditate. I realized that I needed to stop “running” from stressful situations and toxic people and deal with my issues head on. I ended up beginning therapy, cutting some people out of my life, adding good people into my life and I started doing this little known thing called Yoga.
Yoga has healed me in ways I cannot begin to describe. It brought back something to me that gave me so much joy. I can exercise again without pain. Movement, is a gift. People don’t realize how blessed they are to move without pain. I know what it feels like to feel pain with each step and when I started yoga, that all but went away. Honestly, I still have pain in my hips when it is too cold or when I push too hard, but I have learned through practicing yoga that in all things there must be a balance and one must always honor his or her body. When I don’t feel well, I don’t do anything and that is just fine with me.
Soooo…I’m one of those lame people who post pictures on Instagram of my yoga poses. I got into the yoga challenges by accident really. My cousin suggested one and because I have some body image issues, I enjoyed seeing myself doing something in a different light. The yoga community on Instagram is also one of the most positive social media communities I have ever come across. I just finished a challenge called #iam_ where the hosts gave a word and we were to state a positive affirmation along with a pose that we felt expressed the word given. It’s actually pretty cool. I will attach a link to a slideshow I made at the bottom of this post.
Next week, I plan to share what websites I use and the workout challenges I am doing currently. I don’t go to a gym. All of my workouts are done at home. Also, my workouts are separate from my yoga practice because to me, yoga is not exercising. Anywho, just wanted to give some background and hopefully you like the slideshow.